Ok so remember the last post about cockroaches? Remember when I said I didn’t know how I would react once I saw it again?
Well now I know!! It was inevitable!
I have been having encounters almost every day, and I have to say it’s a test! Honestly, how much can one person handle a phobia cockroach???
So the first time after written the post I saw a cockroach, it was adventurously climbing the stairs up to the bedrooms. It was 5:00 in the morning and I had already done my sitting meditation, so life was good. My son had just woken up and had asked me to go downstairs and he was the first one to see it.
At that time I was able to skip through it, open the house door’s and take it outside without having too much of a disgust. The most important thing at that time was to take it out of the house before it faced a certain death at someone else’s foot. So I was feeling quite proud of myself when we putted it outside, my children were cheering and we were ready to go to our daily tasks. But then I realised that when I had brushed it outside, I was unsuccessful and the cockroach stayed upside down at the front door. Again it would face death if it stayed like this for a long time, so I decided that I had to put back on the right position so it could run away, preferably far from the house ( remember it is important for Buddhists not to kill any being accordingly to our beliefs). So with the children cheering up for their mom with words of support, I was able to put it back on its feet. At the exact moment I did it, a flick of pride run through me and at the exact moment one of house securities came up to it and crashed it with his foot.
*Sh*t* was the word it came to my mind. Both the kids and myself just stared looking at it, still absorbing the loud sound of the smashing and looking at it’s cracked body under the security man shoe who was at that time brushing it of at the side-walk. The crazy thing, was that the sound of the cracking body was so loud that both the kids and I were unable to talk for a few minutes.
The other time, I had a cockroach encounter was today! Which inspired me to write another crazy post about cockroaches.
Today, I hadn’t done my sitting meditation yet, my son woke up early and not in the best moods. Then it was time for breakfast, prepare the lunch boxes, and get them dressed. After being ready, my son was a little bit disappointed because his sister hadn’t let him touch her telescope, so to make him feel better I went to the room in search for a kaleidoscope that is also much fun to see through, and that is when we saw it!
It was so near me, it was pure luck I didn’t step on it with my bare feet! This time I screamed, I shivered and I had all the disgusting feelings one can have when seeing a cockroach!
So again we had to put it outside but this time it revealed to be a harder task than other times before.
We need to put a flying cockroach in the little shovel. I think I must have shivered all the time and with my four-year old holding the brush we were able to place it inside the shovel in the right running/flying position. Of course, at this time I was just saying to myself kind in a mantra type: “Don’t fly now, don’t fly now, PLEASE DON’T FLY NOW”.
Somehow it didn’t fly and we were able to put outside near a tree. I closed the door with a big relief by which at that time my seven-year old daughter came to me and asked me for something that I can’t even recall at the moment to which I replied : Wait a second, mommy needs to breath out all this cockroach emotion “. My daughter being very spirited just kindly replied : “like all mornings mommy!”
Yes, I believe this won’t be the last of the cockroach series. Maybe the next time I will take a picture for guys to see it 😉 !!!!